♥ Feelings

there are times that i tell myself that it's okay, no need to take it to heart. some feelings just needs time to be truly known and some feelings has to be let go but feelings has never has been an easy thing to understand. feelings are fragile and a lot more complicated than i credit it for. like for example, i just laugh it all off when they tell me things about him. however, deep inside i know it hurts. it even hurts more when he just ignores me like i don't even exist. however, all i can do is to ignore the hurt and focus on the brighter side of life. i should be thankful that once in my life i've been a part of his and he has been a part of mine so i shouldn't be feeling quite pitiful. i should just smile and be strong. however, this doesn't mean that i'm gonna give up. it doesn't matter if nothing changes. all i know is that i'll stand firm and won't budge no matter what awaits in my future.

♥ Ghost in the Shell

here from behind my sight, my thoughts, my mind..

show from the light, the time is right
and from the depth within show the balance
of outer and inner harmony..
mind and heart, soul and spirit undivided
here's where the true strength and beauty lies
we'll see this before us with our own eyes
we'll see, with our own eyes.. LOVE..

~ Living Inside the Shell ~

♥ Haircut

it's been about two years since i last had an haircut so i was thinking that it's probably about time that i had one. true, i love my long hair but i need it styled for this coming new year. eherm.. okay, i mean i need it for a new image or for a new beginning. well, i don't want it too short so maybe two to three inches will do. i'm still undecided whether i'm going to have bangs but i know that i want it colored. i think that mahogany red would suit me since i did have that hair color when i was in college and i have a feeling that it would really suit me. yeah, so i think i'll do that.

anyway, i just discovered that i can't hold that much liquior anymore. unlike when i was in college, i could best my college buddies in their we-should-get-drunk-til-we-pass-out session. now, i only can take about two to three san miguel light. if i drink much more than that.. well.. you don't want to know what happens. hahaha. that's what the price i had to pay for not drinking for almost three years. it's not that it's something bad but i think it's a good thing that i can't drink too much anymore.

♥ Me. You.

Me fine. You fine.
We fine. It's fine.

Me warm. You cold.
We alone. It's beating.

Me here. You there.
We apart. It's sad.

Me wants. You afraid.
We together. It's waiting.

Me yours. You can't.
We stare. It's hope.

Me tries. You don't.
We expect. It's belief.

Me thinks. You forget.
We silent. It's waste.

Me shakes. You wait.
We touch. It's pretty.

Me longs. You come.
We stay. It's great.

Me knows. You know.
We know. It's known.

credits to the one who made this poem.
sorry, i forgot where i got this.

♥ Last Exile

I ran..

And left the most important person behind..

~ Alex Row ~