Words I Couldn't Say

In a book, in a box, in the closet
In a line, in a song I once heard
In a moment on a front porch late one June
In a breath inside a whisper beneath the moon.

There it was at the tips of my fingers
There it was on the tip of my tongue
There you were and I had never been that far
There it was the whole world wrapped inside my arms
And I let it all slip away.

What do I do now that you're gone
No back up plan, no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldn't say.

There's a rain that will never stop fallin'
There's a wall that I tried to take down
What I should have said just wouldn't pass my lips
So I held back and now we've come to this
And it's too late now.

I should have found the way to tell you how I felt
Now the only one I'm telling is myself.

♥ Everytime

I'm afraid I'm starting to feel
What I said I would not do
The last time really hurt me

I'm scared to fall in love
Afraid to love so fast
Cuz everytime I fall in love
It seems to never last

But every time your love is near
And every time I'm filled with fear
Cuz every time I see your face
My heart does begin to race everytime

One half wants me to go
One half wants me to stay
I just get so all confused

Everytime your love is near
And every time I'm filled with fear
Cuz every time I see your face
Could it be that this will be the one that lasts?
The fear does start to erase every time
Oh could it be that this will be the one that lasts
For all my times

♥ I Don't Wanna Be Your Friend

I don't wanna see your face
I don't wanna hear your name
I don't wanna thing just stay away, baby

Don't wanna know if you're alright
Or what you're doin' with your life
Don't wanna hear you say that you'll stay in touch maybe

I'll get by just fine
And if you're goin' then darlin' goodbye, goodbye

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it'll be the way it was before
Don't think that I care
I'm not over you yet
And I don't wanna be your friend

I'll forget we ever met
I'll forget I ever let
Ever let you into this heart of mine, baby

You just gotta let me be
You gotta keep away from me
'Cause all I want is just to be free from you baby

Don't you come around
And say you still care about me
Just go now, go now

You take it so casually
But baby it's killing me...Yeah

Goodbye, goodbye

Don't call me
Don't come around
Don't wanna be your friend...

♥ Did You Ever Love Somebody

Did you ever love somebody
So much that the earth moved?
Did you ever love somebody
Even though it hurt to?
Did you ever love somebody
Nothing else your heart could do?
Did you ever love somebody
Who never knew?

Did you ever lay your head down
On the shoulder of a good friend?
And then had to look away somehow
Had to hide the way you felt for them
Have you ever prayed the day would come
You'd hear them say they feel it too?
Did you ever love someone
Who never knew?

I do.
And if you did
Well you know I'd understand
I could, I would
More than anybody can

Did you ever love somebody
So much that the earth moved?
Did you ever love somebody
Even though it hurt to?
Did you ever love somebody
Nothing else your heart could do?
Did you ever love somebody
Like I love you?

♥ You Should Know By Now

You ought to know by now,
Love is the look in my eye;
Lovin' the way you smile when I say,
"I wish you would stay."
You bring out all the youth in me,
I laugh and cry out all the truth in me,
Out o' love.
You should know by now.

Haven't you felt by now
Just what it's like to be loved;
Knowin' that certain touch when you're sure
Time won't give you more.
You bring out all the best in me;
I wanna hold you till you feel the need
Somehow,
You should know by now.

If I could just find the words,
I wouldn't be left so lonely;
I'm your one and only.
Then I'd show you how
Ev'ry move as smooth as silk,
Say you will; say you will.

Hasn't it crossed your mind
Haven't you known all the time
Honestly tell me now,
Has it shown?
How much love has grown;
The way I tremble at the sight of you.
I want to learn to love you through and through,
This I'll beg.
You should know by now,

♥ The Ghost Of You

Summer's ended and without a trace
Time goes by - while you remain
Funny how I thought I walked on through
With my heart in one..

Why do I still cry for you
Dying to get close to you
And why do I still fear to face
The ghost of you..

How I tried to get you off my mind
But you return - all the time
I believed I could just let you go
Like the fool I am..

I've been trying to release you
To get my feet back on the ground
Still I need my hope to hold on to
Even if I know I should back away
It's just a part of me that I can't erase..

Anyway I try I'm still reminded
The ghost of you..
Anywhere I go I keep colliding with
The ghost of you..
I've given up I just can't fight it
The ghost of you..

Everytime I look away I see
The ghost of you.

i dedicate this song to mister birthday boy.

i know that he would not read this blog 
so i have the courage to put this here. *laugh*
someday, i may probably have a chance to point this 
song and say that i dedicate this to him 
or maybe sing it to him personally.

♥ Just So You Know

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know
How to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now

Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's gettin' hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other away

This emptiness is killin' me
And I'm wonderin' why I've waited so long
Lookin' back I realize it was always there
Just never spoken

I'm waitin' here
Been waitin' here

this song just hit me right on the spot. but i did promise
myself that i'll shut my mouth before i say something
i'll regret. someday i'll just look at this and say
something like "good for you" or just laugh it off. well,
i sure hope so or die trying. xP

♥ Whatever It Takes

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

♥ Losin' the Love

There are days when I regret it
The things I said to you
I put my trust in no one
It broke my heart and I blamed it on you
You are kind and oh so gentle
But I refused to see
That someone like you existed
I was somewhere in denial
While you were loving me

I cried myself to sleep last night
When I woke up
There were tear stains on my pillow
It hurt so much to sacrifice what I gave up
Without you in my life
I will always feel lonely
Losing the love
From someone like you

Not a day goes by without something
Reminding me of you
The truth is that I miss you
It gets so hard not being with you
There are times when I go crazy
In the twilight of the night
How I long to be your woman again
There's a pain that I hold
That will not let me go

I don't wanna make this too hard
But I just wanna be where you are
In your life, by your side, forever

♥ Amazing Grace

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

T'was Grace that taught my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
'Tis Grace that brought me safe thus far
and Grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me.
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

When we've been here ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we've first begun.

♥ Win

Dark is the night
I can weather the storm
Never say die
I've been down this road before

I'll never quit
I'll never lay down
See I promised myself I would never let me down

So I'll never give up
Never give in
Never let a ray of doubt slip in
And if I fall
I'll never fade
I'll just get up and try again
Never lose hope
Never lose faith
There's much too much at stake
Upon myself I must depend
I'm not looking for a place ashore
I'm gonna win

Won't stop me now
There's still a ways to go
Some way somehow
Whatever it takes I know

I'll never quit
I'll never go down
I'll make sure they remember my name 100 years from now

When it's all said and done
My once in a lifetime won't be back again
Now is the time, for me to stand
Here is my chance, that's why

♥ Dear Diary

Dear diary,
Something good happened today
He finally called me by my name
I didn't know how to behave
What to say or do
I was so confused

Dear diary,
I wanna talk to him again
But whenever he is with his friends
He keeps trying to pretend
But I already see
The way he feels for me

What can I do?
Tell me what can I say
When do I let him know I feel the same way?
How can my feelings be so hard to show when
I really want him to know

Dear diary,
He wrote some letters on his hand
It wasn't hard to understand
I figured I'm part of his plans
But now I'm in his heart
I don't know where to start

You're my secret hiding place
Where my private thoughts are safe
And just one look and he will see
What's inside of me

♥ What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken