♥ What To Do

 i've been thinking of shutting this blog down since i don't have much time to post. i've been quite busy with work so i can't update as much as i want to, not to mention that instead of randomly posting stuff which comes to my mind i've been creating poems this days. i'm hesitant to post those here since it's much more personal that doing this (haha). or if not a total shut down, it'll be hiatus. hmmm.. if i decided to do a hiatus or semi-hiatus, instead of posting twice or once a month, it'll probably be once every two months. ha! i'm not sure.. arggg!! well, whatever..

BUT i won't shut down my tumblr. it'll always be up and about. well, i even created another tumblr account. that one is much more private so i'll not be putting the link here. if you want to follow that one, you hafta discover that tumblr blog of mine. eherm.. that's all. oh yeah, i'll update my manga list one of these days before the BIG decision. wait for it.

♥ Do You..

♥ Everytime

I'm afraid I'm starting to feel
What I said I would not do
The last time really hurt me

I'm scared to fall in love
Afraid to love so fast
Cuz everytime I fall in love
It seems to never last

But every time your love is near
And every time I'm filled with fear
Cuz every time I see your face
My heart does begin to race everytime

One half wants me to go
One half wants me to stay
I just get so all confused

Everytime your love is near
And every time I'm filled with fear
Cuz every time I see your face
Could it be that this will be the one that lasts?
The fear does start to erase every time
Oh could it be that this will be the one that lasts
For all my times

♥ D.Gray-Man

"No matter what happens, I'll keep on moving.

Until this life runs out of me, I'll keep on walking."

~ Allen Walker ~

♥ Updating

 nothing new today. i just decided to blog since i have some updating to do. first of all, i added a follow me button for my twitter. i decided to do it for my own amusement. no need to click it if you're not interested. i don't mind. i created a twitter account just to voice out what usually comes to my mind. i'm not really comfortable on doing it on facebook so that's why i have a twitter. :) next update is in my Manga Section. i've been meaning to add some finished manga since 2 months ago but usually laziness strikes so i wasn't able to do it. so if you are interested you better check it out. a manga with this symbol (○) means it's new. well, that's the only update i can think of. xP

♥ *Sigh* *Sigh* *Sigh*

 for some reason unknown to me, it seems that some people really gets angry at me. heck, i'm not sure if it's because of my personality or because of what i say to them. really, i'm not the type of person who's very argumentative. i just voice out my opinions from time to time and i admit that i usually joke around. they probably doesn't get my weird sense of humor but honestly i don't mean what i usually say. there are even times that i don't even remember what i said.

i'm tired defending myself so i'll say this once and for all: "don't take what i say too personally or if someone has any problems with me, say it to my face and don't post it publicly.. don't say it to other people.. SAY IT TO ME.. i don't mind receiving criticism. i don't even mind hearing a feedback. if this doesn't work for you then just ignore me or tell me that you find me offensive and i'll stop talking to you." it's much more easier than doing it behind my back, right?

♥ Gravity

Been a long road to follow
Been there and gone tomorrow
Without saying goodbye to yesterday
Are the memories I hold still valid?
Or have the tears deluded them?

Maybe this time tomorrow
The rain will cease to follow
And the mist will fade into one more today
Something somewhere out there keeps calling.

Am I going home?
Will I hear someone
Singing solace to the silent moon?
Zero gravity, what's it like?

Is somebody there beyond these heavy aching feet?
Still the road keeps on telling me to go on
Something is pulling me
I feel the gravity of it all.

♥ This Pain

♥ Someday.. Soon..

i don't know if i'll ever be done waiting. since it already became a habit of mine. someday, i'll probably move both my feet forward and not move a step back. so i'm just patiently standing by. i just keep telling myself that i'll forget the feeling or probably just remember it as a bitter-sweet memory. that day will come. i just know it, so i'll take my time.

♥ Just Because

Just Because – I’m quiet – it doesn’t mean I don’t have a lot to say
Just Because – I appear happy – doesn’t mean everything’s ok
Just Because – I’m sarcastic – doesn’t mean I don’t take things seriously
Just Because – I forgive – doesn’t mean I forget
Just Because – I don’t listen to you – doesn’t mean I don’t care
Just Because – I’m gullible – doesn’t mean you can lie to me
Just Because – I’m stubborn – doesn’t mean I’m not easy going
Just Because – I don’t show my feelings – doesn’t mean I don’t have any
Just Because – I don’t say I love you – doesn’t mean I don’t
Just Because – I’m honest – doesn’t mean I’m outspoken
Just Because – I’m not like you – doesn’t mean I’m weird
Just Because – I’m unsure – doesn’t mean I’m afraid

♥ I Don't Wanna Be Your Friend

I don't wanna see your face
I don't wanna hear your name
I don't wanna thing just stay away, baby

Don't wanna know if you're alright
Or what you're doin' with your life
Don't wanna hear you say that you'll stay in touch maybe

I'll get by just fine
And if you're goin' then darlin' goodbye, goodbye

Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it'll be the way it was before
Don't think that I care
I'm not over you yet
And I don't wanna be your friend

I'll forget we ever met
I'll forget I ever let
Ever let you into this heart of mine, baby

You just gotta let me be
You gotta keep away from me
'Cause all I want is just to be free from you baby

Don't you come around
And say you still care about me
Just go now, go now

You take it so casually
But baby it's killing me...Yeah

Goodbye, goodbye

Don't call me
Don't come around
Don't wanna be your friend...

♥ In Denial

♥ Chrno Crusade

"I want to change things.

I want to believe that anything can be changed.

The moment I met you,

a new world opened up for me.

You see, after wandering in the darkness for so long,

a light brought me happiness.

It's all thanks to you."

~ Chrono to Rosette ~

♥ Did You Ever Love Somebody

Did you ever love somebody
So much that the earth moved?
Did you ever love somebody
Even though it hurt to?
Did you ever love somebody
Nothing else your heart could do?
Did you ever love somebody
Who never knew?

Did you ever lay your head down
On the shoulder of a good friend?
And then had to look away somehow
Had to hide the way you felt for them
Have you ever prayed the day would come
You'd hear them say they feel it too?
Did you ever love someone
Who never knew?

I do.
And if you did
Well you know I'd understand
I could, I would
More than anybody can

Did you ever love somebody
So much that the earth moved?
Did you ever love somebody
Even though it hurt to?
Did you ever love somebody
Nothing else your heart could do?
Did you ever love somebody
Like I love you?

♥ Second Entry for 2011

 i decided to add tumblr page in my blog. i'm still thinking of expanding this and add some more things. i'm still undecided on to what those things will be but i will absolutely add a page about the mangas which i've finished reading. i already have that in my facebook notes but that account is kinda private so i'll add one here. actually after this entry i'll start doing it. it won't be that time consuming anymore since i'm just going to arrange the one that i already have. what will be included in there are: title, type of manga, how many volumes and the rating.

anyway, on another note i'm still waiting for the result of the job that i'm applying for. i decided to get a job in my hometown instead of applying in manila. i just wanna try doing it here first then after a year or so.. well, we'll just see what will happen. harharhar. wish i'll get that job since the pay is good. looking forward to it. :) oh before i forgot, i just saw the civil service examination result. i was happy that i passed that exam even though i just randomly selected some of the answers. i think i just got lucky. lol.

♥ Welcome 2011!!!

wow, a new year. i'm actually looking forward to this. it'll be new beginning for me. hopefully, great things might happen and i do hope i'll be productive. hahaha. i'm excited. ;) anyway, we'll just see.