♥ Dear Diary

Dear diary,
Something good happened today
He finally called me by my name
I didn't know how to behave
What to say or do
I was so confused

Dear diary,
I wanna talk to him again
But whenever he is with his friends
He keeps trying to pretend
But I already see
The way he feels for me

What can I do?
Tell me what can I say
When do I let him know I feel the same way?
How can my feelings be so hard to show when
I really want him to know

Dear diary,
He wrote some letters on his hand
It wasn't hard to understand
I figured I'm part of his plans
But now I'm in his heart
I don't know where to start

You're my secret hiding place
Where my private thoughts are safe
And just one look and he will see
What's inside of me

♥ If

i saw an old flame's photo yesterday. he still looks as good looking as ever (maybe more so) and it had me thinking that if we never parted what would have happen. i probably had a kid or two by now and i might have a different life than i have. its kinda scary and a bit, i don't know, trilling when i think about that life that would never be mine. since i always like kids i'm feeling a bit sad when i saw his child. that might have been mine if things turned out differently.

oh well, GOD probably never design that life for me so i'm having this one right now. there's no use dwelling in things that can never happen. i'll just live my life the way it is and let GOD direct me in the path he wants me to.

♥ Year 2010

hey yeah 2010. i just decided to go back to school this year to take up a master's degree. i might have some problems being back to school since i'm not use anymore in studying and stuff but i'll do my best. i know that this will be beneficial to my future so i'll try it. who knows this might be the right thing for me. so i'll just cross my fingers. :p