i'm not really sure what i am feeling right now. i suppose that i'm feeling confuse (a lot), in pain (maybe a bit), irritated (for sure) and somewhat relieve (i dunno why). maybe this feelings will right itself in a few days or so, i'm not sure. *sigh*things are rather getting complicated this past few days and i know that i have this habit of distancing myself when i know that pain is somewhat around the corner. it's a bad habit i know but i never ever had the chance to change this one (or i never had any intention to).
maybe this thing that is happening to me is a blessing in disguise. what i've been doing this past few months are not the usual things that i do and maybe this is the way that GOD is saying that i have to change. to right things that i didn't want to change. i'm sure that there is some reason behind this. i'm sure that i'll get through this. maybe not right now, but someday.
i hope so.
