Half Pain

How far back should I have to go?
Tell me.
Everything is
So painfully vivid.

The truth is,
We couldn't understand each other at all
So I left and didn't look back.

Fall into a light sleep
It encompasses my very being
I never carry out my promises
So long ago,
I threw away my brightness
And like the light from the morning sun,
It can never return.

It lies beside this cold heart
Frozen
So completely mindless
That it persists forever.

Numbly, I gather the remnants of my emotions
And searching for redemption.

I fall into a light sleep
On a lonely night
I'm beginning to learn the designs of sorrow
The hiding away
Of your warm presence
Makes me fear the overflowing darkness.