♥ Too Blind

from the song "Only Reminds Me Of You."

♥ Love

i was browsing through Mark Goshingtian's Tumblr when i saw this:

When my sister was younger she came home from school one day and demanded I take her to the library so she could get books on sign language.

I asked why? She told me there was a new kid at school who was deaf and she wanted to befriend him.

Today I stood beside her at their wedding watching her sign “I DO”.

taken from LOVEgivesmehope

i was really touched by it. this short statement made quite an impact in me.

♥ New Outlook

right now i think i have a much more positive outlook than i had in my entire life. i had a heart to heart talk with someone who probably is the most important person in my life and it somewhat made a lot of my hung-ups acceptable. true, things didn't turned out the way i hoped for but i was a bit happy. the thing is i realize that as long as he is happy, everything seems quite insignificant. it occurred to me that the person i was running away from is actually the person i've been looking for this entire time. how ironic for me to notice it when it's already too late. however, i think that i don't have any regrets right now. the only thing i can do for him is to become his shield.. his pillar to the best of my abilities. so, i'll just wait for him to settle down and be absolutely happy then that's the only time that i can move my best feet forward and truly make peace with myself.

♥ So Called Art

the quote isn't mine, just the graphics. if anyone is asking.

♥ The Undeniable vs.The Unexplainable

A: Why do you believe in God?
B: I just do.
A: But the existence of a god can't be proved by science, yet you still believe?
B: Yes, I do.
A: I think that's just absurd, believing in something that can't be explained.
B: Well, you don't have to be able to fully explain or understand in something to be able to believe in it.
A: How so?
B: Do you know how an airplane works?
A: No.
B: Do you ride airplanes?
A: Yes.
B: Why would you ride an airplane if you can't explain how it works? The fact is, there is something undeniable - and that is that airplanes fly. You don't need to be able to explain why or how they fly. You just need to know that they fly. I believe in God because, yes, it might be unexplainable, but it is undeniable. It has changed my life. The undeniable always beats the unexplainable.

♥ I'm Letting Go.. Goodbye

..goodbye to you
goodbye to everything i thought i knew
you are the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to..

♥ Troublesome

lately i've been feeling more and more dissatisfied with myself. i don't remember being content anymore. its weighting me down.. dragging me down to oblivion.. almost into nothingness. i think i'm starting to break down. how troublesome. i wasn't like this from the start. i don't know when it started, i just notice that i'm feeling like this.

i don't want to drag anyone into this mess that i find myself. i guess it's better to distance myself from everyone. i don't want anyone to feel the same way that i'm feeling right now. it's just too horrible. i know being by myself can be lonely but i think it's better this way, neh? even if people thinks that i'm selfish or they don't think highly of me, it's for their own good.

i hope that someday i'll drag myself out and i'll be able to stand up from this. i pray that i'll do.